The most hurtful words I ever heard in my life came out of my husband’s mouth: “I don’t love you anymore.” I’m not sure that I was even able to process those words at that time. Only God’s Word, the Bible, kept me from total despondency with this precious verse:
“I have loved thee with an everlasting love.”Jeremiah 31:3
What a comfort it was to know that I had a more excellent love. God himself loved me perfectly, even with my imperfections. His love is everlasting, without end. While my marriage fell apart, the Lord drew me closer to Him. Jesus gave me greater assurance with another verse:
“I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.” Hebrews 13:5
There are no better words for a forsaken wife to hear! Still, it was difficult to be without tangible arms to hold me. There were so many decisions I had to make in order to survive without a husband. I still had three children with me. I needed a full time job. Could I continue to pay the mortgage? I flew to my Bible again and heard these words:
“Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee.” Isaiah 40:10
Unlike man, God does not renege on His words. He keeps His promises. I knew He would help me, and He did. Soon, I had a full time job and returned to college to complete a bachelor’s degree. He gave me strength from above.
“But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31
Well I may have had many weary days, but the Lord kept me going. After three years of juggling work, school and teenagers, I began to cry out in prayer daily for the Lord to relieve me. I knew I couldn’t keep our house on my salary and needed to relocate. I was used to making decisions with my husband. I didn’t trust my own judgment in these matters. According to my Bible, I discovered I did have a husband:
“For thy Maker is thine husband — ” Isaiah 54:5
I consulted with Jesus with daily prayer, cries and sometimes screams. I put the house on the market and it sold within six months. I graduated with a BA degree at the tender age of 50. My daughter and I moved from New York to Indiana. The Lord truly took care of all the details.
“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28
God hates divorce. I hated being a divorced woman. But just as the Bible says, God works all things out for our good and for His purposes. My divorce drew me closer to Jesus. He also drew my children. After years of worrying how they would heal from divorce, I’m seeing fruits of their faith. The divorce did not destroy any of us. It turned into a blessing! I am greatly blessed when my children express their love and admiration.
“Her children arise up, and call her blessed.” Proverbs 31:28
Yes, the rest of that verse goes on to say ” her husband also, and he praiseth her.” But I live to please my faithful heavenly husband, my maker, my rock and fortress, my Jesus.
“Great is thy faithfulness.” Lamentations 3:23