I find certain Bible verses draw me when I am feeling as though I am at the end of my resources. When I have to take a deep breath and say, “Lord, I’m worn out. I can’t keep going. It’s up to You now.” That’s when He sends a reminder from His Word and fills my tank with His power.
For those times when my mother is having a bad day and I can’t seem to please her, He reminds me why I should keep trying to give her the best care I possibly can.
“Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the LORD thy God giveth thee”. Exodus 20:12 (KJV)
This particular Commandment seems to get lost in the high profile ones about killing and stealing. Yet it is the core of why I came to California. I came to care for my mother, even as she slips away from me into dementia. No matter what she becomes, she will always be my mother.
The work of caring for her seems to be without end. The multiple loads of laundry, the constant anguished calls when she feels abandoned and the endless repeating of the same information over and over wear on me with steady erosion. I am sometimes tempted to take a short cut and do something halfway. Then I remember:
“ Whatsoever thy hand findeth to do, do it with thy might; for there is no work, nor device, nor knowledge, nor wisdom, in the grave, whither thou goest. ” Ecclesiastes 9:10 (KJV)
When the time comes that I can no longer do things for her, I want to know that I did what I could with all my might. Whatever other tasks He has for me down the line, I hope to do the same way. I pray for His strength and guidance.
Jesus used similar words about doing the job at hand:
“I must work the works of him that sent me, while it is day: the night cometh, when no man can work. ” John 9:4 (KJV)
In this day, I do what I can. I know that night is coming and the work will be over. I pray that I will be able to stand before His throne at that time and honestly say “I did my best in Your service.”
Yes, I get tired. Sometimes I get discouraged. Sometimes I feel as though the world has lost all color and music, and exists only in muffled gray tones. He reminds me then that the strength, the encouragement, the color and the music comes from Him. I can count on Him and trust Him for everything I need today and for all of the tomorrows ahead.
“ Jehovah is my strength and song, And he is become my salvation: This is my God, and I will praise him; My father’s God, and I will exalt him. ” Exodus 15: 2 (ASV)
I do praise Him for the gifts He has given me. I thank Him for the blessings He sends me to brighten the dark times and elevate the good ones. Most of all, I thank Him for His promise to always be here with me until He takes me home to be with Him.
” — and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen.” Matthew 28: 20b (KJV)
The King James Version (KJV) and American Standard Version (ASV) are public domain translations of the Holy Bible.