The story of Moses and the burning bush was still with me one morning, as I did my bible study. This time, I learned some things from the part where God not only wants Moses to go back to Egypt, but also to bring out the Israelites. God wants Moses to tell Pharaoh to let the Israelites go; and to lead them out of Egypt. Of course, Moses starts arguing with God. All these “what ifs” start coming to the surface. The bottom line is fear.
1. Moses never felt fear or discomfort in Egypt until he realized that he was different and until he opposed the oppressor. We never feel discomfort in/with old places, people, mindsets, habits, etc. until we choose to oppose them, to change things — to change ourselves and our lives. The devil never gives you any trouble until you try to leave him behind.
2. Pharaoh’s palace was his “turf” growing up. He was a prince of Egypt. He had dominion there- as long as he was an Egyptian- or so it appeared. We delude ourselves as long as we live on “De Nile” (denial), thinking we’re in control and we have dominion. Just like Moses, though; we’re not princes with dominion-we’re actually slaves.
3. He’d spent 40 years on the backside of the desert-sheltered-separated/isolated and protected from the Egyptians/oppressors/old lifestyle — Like Moses, we do just fine after a time of adjustment on the back side of desert-and as long as we’re up on the mountain with God.
So, you’ve been on the mountain with God and now it’s time to go down; not only to keep yourself alive and free, but get others free from bondage too. We can find ourselves immobilized by confusion and fear when we have to go down, or go out and 1. Live it and 2. Tell it. Where do I go if not to the same old crowd? What do I do if not drink, smoke, gamble, use drugs,-etc? What do I do now that the illicit affair is over? How do I keep from going back into that abusive relationship, those old habits and old temptations?
Moses was confused. “How am I supposed to do what you want me to do, God, on their “turf” and in their jurisdiction? The Egyptians used to bow to him; and Pharaoh’s family was once his family. The illusion that those old things, places, people, had any power of you is just that, an illusion. God says, “Trust me, it’s mine; I rule, and I will be with you.” We have been given God’s authority over those “oppressors”; those “bondages.” They don’t have any authority over us. We have to receive that and hold on to that in faith.
Moses was afraid. “Do you realize they want to kill me?” was, I’m sure, at least on the tip of his tongue. God says, “Satan wants to kill me too.” He thought He’d killed Jesus on the cross. But I bet he was surprised to see coming to storm the gates of hell that day.
We can fear failure and so end up 40 some years on the backside of the desert and/or on top of the mountain; immobilized; not really going or getting anywhere. Twenty years of covering bruises; twenty years of “surviving” but not progressing; not really escaping the oppression of the fear, anger, guilt, etc. that we feel.
We can be afraid to give our testimony; to take God to others. Some of them, after all, know who and what we used to be. That’s not really fear of giving testimony of what God’s done in your life-it’s fear of others knowing your past — fear of your past — you’re still in fear of your past if you’re worried about the fact that others might bring it up and/or hold it against you. The truth is that God has put that thing in the sea of forgetfulness; as far as the East is from the West, and He remembers it no more. It’s the tomb that He resurrected you out of. A resurrected you is a new and glorified you.