Three months after leaving rehab, Demi Lovato has courageously opened up about her bipolar disorder.
The Disney star has admitted her struggles with anorexia, bulimia and cutting, but mostly recently revealed how she found out that she suffered from being bipolar as well.
In an interview with People Magazine, Lovato told, “I never found out until I went into treatment that I was bipolar.”
“Looking back it makes sense,” she said of her diagnosis. “There were times when I was so manic, I was writing seven songs in one night and I’d be up until 5:30 in the morning.”
Demi is certainly on the mend, as she added, “I feel like I am in control now where my whole life I wasn’t in control.”
After undergoing a very public personal struggle, Demi Lovato recently shared her story with ABC News.
The “Camp Rock” cutie began, “I’ve spoken openly about being bullied throughout the past few years, but one thing that I’ve never been able to feel comfortable talking about was the effects that it had on my life, afterwards. I literally didn’t know why they were being so mean to me. And when I would ask them why, they would just say, ‘Well, you’re fat.”
Demi continued, “I developed an eating disorder, and that’s kind of what I’ve been dealing with ever since. I was compulsively overeating when I was eight years old. So, I guess, for the past 10 years I’ve had a really unhealthy relationship with food.”
She also sought refuge in self-mutilation or cutting. “It was a way of expressing my own shame, of myself, on my own body. I was matching the inside to the outside. And there were some times where my emotions were just so built up, I didn’t know what to do. The only way that I could get instant gratification was through an immediate release on myself.”
Last summer, things came to a head. “I was performing concerts on an empty stomach. I was losing my voice from purging. I was self-medicating. I was not taking medication for depression, and I literally was so emotionally whacked out that I took it out on someone that meant a lot to me.”
Ms. Lovato says she hopes her openness will help her fans who have similar issues. “The real reason why I’m sitting down with you is to open up the eyes of so many young girls, that it doesn’t have to be this way.”
Demi also noted that she’s ditching her Disney gig “Sonny with a Chance” in favor of fully pursuing her music career.
The 18-year-old explained her departure in this week’s issue of People, telling, “It made sense for me to go ahead and leave the show to focus on my music. It’s kind of sad for me that a chapter of my life has ended but there couldn’t be a better time for me to move on.”
Demi continued her reasoning by saying, “I don’t think going back to Sonny would be healthy for my recovery. Being in front of a camera would make me nervous.”
The talented teen has earned the support of her Disney family, as they have released a statement saying, “We respect Demi’s decision to focus fulltime on her music and not immediately return to her acting career. She is a talented young woman and our hearts are with her as she continues to take action to improve her health and bounce back from adversity.”
Lovato’s 20/20 interview on ABC will air Friday (April 22) at 10 P.M. ET.
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